I sometimes wish I didn't have to bother caring about your problems mainly because it's the same one that keeps ocurring over and over again. Believe me, if you're sick of it, what about me? No matter how much advice I give you, I can only help you so much. And the fact is you're stubborn and if you don't actually take my advice, what is the point of me giving it to you? I guess in a way it's selfish of me to not want to care because I did say I didn't mind it when you come to me with your problems. But you need to start doing things on your own too. Stop thinking the way you do because it's wrong. Your mentality is wrong. Granted, you can't help it in a way because of the way you grew up and the mentality: the low self-esteem has been drilled into you since you were young. But can you stop putting yourself down and saying others are better than you and that you don't belong, blah blah blah? It's repetitive. Not to mention a little bit on the self-pitying side to me. Why should you work so hard to be "on the same level" as them when in truth, you are NOT below them. Snap out of it kid.
Why have you changed so much? If you're going to let these few people affect you THAT much and change you so drastically I'd rather you not be with them for abit. A change in environment might be good for you.

Gah. I don't know how to help you. It's getting to be a routine.